Little heartbeat
2005-10-21, 7:28 p.m.

So the coolest thing happened today. I went to the doctor, standard prenatal visit, right? Well, I got to hear my baby's heartbeat for the first time!!! oh my God it was the coolest thing! My doc put the jelly stuff on, and at first you could just hear the sounds of the womb, fluid swishing around and stuff... and the she moved it a little lower... and I just started crying. My tiny little baby with it's beating heart. It was so fast. I knew right away what it was. It was the most wonderful sound I've ever heard. And on the 9th of November at 11 am, I'll get to see my baby for the first time. I'm so excited.

I feel great. I'm 16 weeks, just entering my 4th month of pregnancy. I'm starting to show now. Doc tells me that Baby is gonna start growing pretty quickly now, so no fat jokes ya hear! Morning sickness has completely stopped. It's weird how one day it just disappeared, thank goodness. I'm starting to eat more during the day, and I have to pee more than usual, but it's not that bad yet because Baby isn't big enough to really press on my bladder yet. I can't feel movement, but Doc assured me that He/She is moving. Baby has all it's organs and all body parts now, so pretty soon they'll be able to tell me if it's a boy or girl. Can't wait!!

Should be starting my new job next month. Office furniture is being moved in this week. So I'm excited about that too. Other than that, I don't really think anything cool is going on.

Ryan and I aren't doing well. Which couldn't come at a worse time. ANd I hate myself for not seeing it before. He just turned out to be this... asshole. It's like, you couldn't have made me hate you BEFORE you knocked me up?! Thanks, thanks a bunch. Did I ever tell you he wanted me to get an abortion? I thought about it... but I just couldn't punish this little baby because I made a mistake. and after hearing the heartbeat today, I could never do it now. So, I may just wind up another statistic, but I'm gonna be the best damn statistic that ever was!! Besides, my family has always stood behind me, and they are so excited for this baby. Poor kid is gonna be spoiled rotten. Everyone of my friends wants to be an aunt, godparent... something!

Ok, I better get going... promised Micaela I'd bring her coffee while she's working down at the safe house.

Holla atcha girl

 

 

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